Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Fear: The Struggle is Real

 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

There are many people in the Bible that I truly admire. Joshua is one of those people. I was excited that our Sunday school lesson Sunday was about Joshua and how the Lord used him to lead God’s people into the land he had promised them. Joshua was one of the two spies, the other being Caleb, who believed God would help them possess the Promised Land. The other ten were full of fear and gave a negative report. They didn’t believe God would or perhaps even could help them. Out of these 12 men, only two made it into the Promised Land: Joshua and Caleb. The rest died in the wilderness.

We had our 4th graders count the number of times God told Joshua to be strong and courageous in our scripture text 1-9. In just 3 verses, 6,7 and 9, God told Joshua these words 3 times. We aren’t told how Joshua was feeling about his new task of taking Moses’ place in leading this large group of people as well as leading the battles against their foes that would ultimately secure their inheritance. But God knew his heart. From the evidence of these encouraging words being spoken to Joshua 3 times in one encounter, along with commanding him not to be afraid or discouraged, it seems that Joshua may have been a little nervous. God in His loving nature didn’t expect Joshua to be strong and courageous, nor win the battles in his own strength. I love that He encouraged Joshua and assured him that He would be with him. Verse 9 says, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Fear is a reality for many people. Fear and anxiety can often paralyze a person. It can keep them in bondage, holding them back from doing things that God is calling them to do. Fear of rejection, fear of crowds, fear of public speaking, fear of failure, fear of not measuring up, fear of being compared to someone else, fear of giving up control, etc...etc...etc... None of these fears are from God. 2 Timothy 1:7 tells us that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. 

I’m not speaking about something I know nothing about. I have been prey to each of these at some point in my life. Some of them still rear their ugly heads occasionally, and I have to resist them and trust God. (Submit to God, resist the devil and he will flee. James 4:7) I remember when I was a teenager/young adult when it was time for greeting each other during our Sunday morning service at church, I would slip out the back until it was over, afraid to have to talk to people. I didn’t take chorus in junior high and high school, even though I loved singing, because I was afraid I would have to sing a solo in front of everyone. At 25, my Aunt who led the singing at church wanted me to sing with the praise team. Sometimes I would wait until the singing was over to go into church because I was afraid she would call me up on stage.

As a new mom, I turned down an invite to go out with my husband’s parents and some family friends because I was afraid my baby would start crying, and I wouldn’t be able to comfort him. The woman we were going with also had a baby and he never cried. I was afraid she would be seen as a better mother than I. Worst of all, I was afraid my mother-in law would take him from me, and he would stop crying. Oh the horror! 

I could go on and on, but you get the point. At a defining point in my walk with God, I had had enough. I was at a retreat where we were told to write down something that we were willing to ultimately give to God and place the paper in a basket at the foot of a cross, obviously symbolic of laying it at the feet of Jesus. This was one of mine. I was tired of being timid and afraid. God has helped me so much with this. I do still have my moments, but I don’t let them take me down and keep me from doing what God is calling me to do. I want my children to see me as a confident woman of God. Not in her own abilities but in trusting God to help her overcome her fears. I want them to be strong and courageous and do whatever God leads them to do. I need to be a good example for them. 

Being courageous doesn’t mean you are completely fearless; it means you do whatever needs to be done in spite of your fear. And we don’t have to do it alone. God is with us. We need to be like Joshua and Caleb who trusted God and believed in His ability to give them victory instead of like the other ten spies who feared defeat and didn’t trust God to do what He said He would do. They actually let their fear and unbelief defeat them. By doing so, they disobeyed God, thus never seeing the reality of what He had promised them.

Remember, the first step is always the hardest!